Excerpts From Notes Strewn Around The Bedroom Of April Connolly, Feb 24th, 1997

Artists : Cursive : Excerpts From Notes Strewn Around The Bedroom Of April Connolly, Feb 24th, 1997

Why I should leave…
no-why I’m leaving you for him..
well, let’s see here…
well, let’s see; where should I begin?
Every night you get annihilated with all yr friends,
and every night I drink alone until you stumble home wanting some-
like some fuck and run.
I know you sleep around,
I see it in the eyes of those girls.
Those fucking girls..
they smile and nod,
but never offer a single word-
I’m just in the way-
I’m the ball and chain,
yr the jailbird chirping, “how hard life is in the cage!”
( how hard it is waking up next to me.)
Well, you’ve dug this hole,
come on and fill me up.
When you said you loved me
I knew I was getting fucked
you said you’d never let go
all that stopped…
you used to turn me on,
now we’re just getting off
that’s why I’m leaving you.
[and the drunken erratic response from april’s ex-boyfriend Trevor Post, upon finding said various notes]
you really, really think this guy is gonna make it alright?
You told me you could never be in love with another man
oh but this one is it!
But I remember when we met
we knew that this was the end.
Yeah, I remember
I remember everything
the haircuts
the dollar movies.
We used to sneak a six pack in yr bag,
and wait for a girl to scream
or a car to crash so we could crack open our cans.
Or the time you shaved my head in the front yard;
a passerby stopped to take a picture – ended up in the paper
and now you want to leave?
Well maybe I forgot a couple things
it doesn’t mean I don’t remember
how it feels when yr lying naked next to me.
Valentine I want to feel yr hips pressed up against mine.
We’ll push into each other
love’s alive.
It might be fleeting,
but its ours and its tonight..
so won’t you reconsider love-lost lives?
You might be lonely, but I’m still by yr side.
You might have to leave but not tonight